words by me

Its taken my along time to write like this
from a place I know
Me
It took me so many great falls
and rivers of tears
and i am not done yet
writing
See
the whirlwind of angers and love and stolen memories
roads traveled
and seas drowned
you see what keeps me rising
are these ashes
i have never let go of
the warm loving dew on the roses
my morning egg sandwich
yes
that melts my heart every time
those tiny snails
that creep up out of nowhere
or yes
the red shinny stones i once thought were valued like rubies
ive never let go of the animals in my heart
those who make me love me
exactly for who I am
I keep dreaming of fairy tales
filled with balloons like strangers in the night

I keep on
because i hold it all
yes indeed
all
you may not understand me
you cant see through me
but right now right here
its finally silent
there is no one here
but me
the things i hold dear
and a whole world of nothing
yet
i am who i am
not who you say i am
but who i know
im here
waiting for the final
words to be written
by only me
it took me several years to return
this my own hell
the inside of me
to meet you
my GOD